I can do this, really, I can, I tell myself. Part 1: I feel already a bit uneasy, my body restless, thinking about all kind of solutions for the challenges that might be ahead if I go in. So, there we go again. I have been here so many times. I should be relaxed with it by now. It will be oké, I tell myself. I can always say no if I really don’t want to. I will manage. I should be able to handle it by now. It will be oké, really. I can do this. I can handle this. So I