
Do I have a choice?
I can do this, really, I can, I tell myself. Part 1:
I feel already a bit uneasy, my body restless, thinking about all kind of solutions for the challenges that might be ahead if I go in. So, there we go again. I have been here so many times.
I should be relaxed with it by now.
It will be oké, I tell myself. I can always say no if I really don’t want to.
I will manage.
I should be able to handle it by now.
It will be oké, really. I can do this. I can handle this.
So I